All my life I've been in charge to care for others.
At a very young age I was required to cook and clean for my five younger brothers and sisters. My mother charged me to perform duties at 100% and nothing less. This responsibility worked on my emotions acting as a mature kid stressed me out so much that I fell into a deep comma for nine months before finishing grade 10. There asleep in the hosiptal I visited the other dimentions going in and out and witnessed the LIGHT which everyone now a days expresses like after they have eaten a candy bar and get a sugar rush.
Being responsible is the only way I know how to live and to this day am still taking care of two different households, because I care.
My OBE's or NDE's two documented by doctors and eleven total trips to the other side, taught me personally about the spiritual side of our existance. These trips caused a deep desire to discover, "Why we are the Way we are". This is and has always been my lifes duty..doo dee were a weird sense of humour is also required to maintain sanity is this screwed up world living with its faulity realities.
Which takes me to my focus in helping in working with others to realize the Ascension Hologram.
Your focus in creating the Ascension Hologram:
I have received my rewards but only after years of devotion towards my sense of being. Maybe this insight is for my benefit only and maybe not. I still need to share my work in hoping to find others of Alike Minds.
Therefore: Those who have witnessed my findings quiry about how the program delivers such a constant proper comprehensive realism or truth.
Those who haven't examined my work pass it off as being impossible. If I had had the education and teachings to get a degree I would also think this project impossible. But no one told me it couldn't be done so I did it.
Isn't Ascension asking one to soar higher in every aspect of Self, in a more holistic manner.
Tarotnames shows how Karma can be elevated in A single lifetime. Wanting to achieve life lesson improvement without having to wait for a rebirthing is the act of evolving. Do whatever now why wait. Just Do It.
I thank you for inviting me to be your friend. Yes, we are all going through different things and feelings and no one of us are going through it at the same pace or depth. We all have to be patient and when it is right we will receive and understand what is right for us. I go where I am guided and feel the emotion and love this brings to my life. It is sooo beautiful.
Love and LIght,
Hi again, Eddie! By "too Indigo" I meant my mind wanders here and there, unable to stay still, not weird. Although the weird part is also true in other aspects.
Thanks for your insights and thoughts, many of the things you told me in your last message and in other messages have left me thinking deeply about many events in my life.
What comes across clearly right now is that I've lived most of my life thinking that I must be in a certain way in order to function in life and with others, instead of being myself and expressing myself to that people just as I am. I've also "learned" to blind myself to the gifts given to me just because I'm scared or because they are not seen as gifts by many others. I guess you could call it a waste of time, but on the other hand I've learned so much.
Summarizing, I've lived as I must live and not as I am. That's why sometimes I think I am actually two different persons: my secret self and my outer, "nice" self.
I guess I could say my secret self is a witch, a person that knows magic is part of her normal life and she must learn to use that magic, she must follow the path to the end. But the other self knows it cannot be just like that put it on children books, because the most important thing is to be everything people expects, so why bother walking the tough path. I never thought decisions could be so hard and important.
Thoughts flow and flow, Eddie! I'm sure I'll be typing to you soon.
P.S. Sorry, but, what did you mean with my "scenic friends"? People only in this net, or just people I know?