Sometimes its hard, but I gotta stay focused on love

[Matthew Knapp]

Its my growing concern to myself that when i try my best to explain about whats truly going on. its hard not to get the wrong/worst impression from family/friends/random people.

I have come to know things that would make one either break down in tears for there knowladge of life is flawed*not nessasarly wrong* but we could be living in literly a heaven on earth from what my brother would call it.
I do not let the fear from the illuminati nor the ET's*negative ones* rule my life. but the people I know that also know whats going on isnt quiet aware of our true beings potential. we are spirits in flesh. it frustrates me when people are semi clueless or think its new age preachy stuff when I try to explain all there is out there, just waiting for them to learn and experiance. and hopfully help change the face of this sociaty. I am personaly trying to learn how to be more receptive to the sisters and brothers out there watching over us, and among us, sometimes I feel needy or greedy when I think on the reasons why. but its the fact that we are people with such greatness, being supressed, I want the give the world the key. its gonna take quiet abit of work. but IM up to the challange. I gotta believe that theres better then the fear based sociaty the negative ET's and the elite sociaty has to offer.

I want freedom, I want clearity, and I want love into my life and share it with the world.

its hard to believe just 2 years ago I wouldnt ever dream to feel/know the things I know now. and I have come to truly believe that all the negative and positive events were no coinsadence. they all helped me wake up.
made me see what sad state we are in, and what we could be if we try,
the I want us all to be in the same boat to higher vibrational express, sorry if I sound like a broken record folks. but its somethings I truly believe in and if I say it enough times for record. maybe people will understand how dedicated somepeople are to both helping humanity and trying to wake up the masses. I was actualy saprised to find that some of my friends and there family know about the new world order agenda. but they dont know that they shouldnt fear the powers that want us to fear. I tell them not to watch the news for all that is on the news is depressing and mostly untrue for the most part.

im getting to a point when I am going to start going to the extreme,*not too too extreme that it will harm people though*

but truth. love, light. these things must be part of me so I can shine that on people, and make a chain reaction or a domino's effect.

and still yet even I am being bombared daily by these negative forces, I kid you not. the beings that are out to make the world worse, no not take a day off. I believe the forces of light shouldnt either, in retrospective. I know we are limitless. and we have the love and power to do anything!

for all who read this I firstly wish to state that I have a love hate relationship with humanity. I hate what state we are in and think life is good... but I love humanity and our potential we could be!

Iv been working on my telepathy. speaking with both my self and others through thought. its not as hard as people think *hehe get it think-telepathy* i made a funny lol anyway.

the moral of this blog is. awaken your self, with love, truth, light. and dont let fear rule you.